I had an amazing day yesterday but was completely thrown off in the evening when a family member flared up at an incident all of a sudden. It took away the romance from the entire day or so I felt. Why did he have to get all hyper for something totally inconsequential and spoil my mood that I had so carefully nurtured through the day? Was the issue even important enough? My anger led my thoughts to all those times I wanted to flare up at him through the day, but how I let it go thinking I should avoid disturbance of any kind. Why couldn't he do the same?! I went to sleep with this thought and woke up with the same thought. This thought seemed to overpower even my gratitude session at night. When I sat down to meditate in the morning is when I asked the universal power to bring me to a state of oneness and help me resolve the issue. 3 deep breaths and baam! My anger dissolved and I felt a soft glow of nurture slowly growing within me. I just saw that every time he flared up without a reason, he is unable to function with his heart, his mind takes over! He is unable to be in a state of connection, he is unable to see the opportunity for love in a situation instead his mind scurries towards hurry and an unpleasant state.
The warm glow helped my heart open and feel a sense of unconditional love. I say unconditional because the love is in spite of the fact that he flared up at me. I was able to see that his flaring was not at me, but at the way he feels about himself or the state of mind he is in. The absence of peace, self love, self worth in him maybe leads to attacking, blaming, expecting... what a state to be in.. what else should I feel if not empathy? I also realized that this wisdom is easier when one is looking at another person. It's so easy to see this in others, yet so difficult to see it in ourselves! I'd still say this is progress, these are little steps taken towards spiritual maturity that helps us be in a state of oneness - with self and with those around us.
I hope this helps you take little steps towards resolving difficult relationships that affect you.
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