I am within you and you look for me in objects
You look for me in the mansions
You look for me in swanky cars
You look for me in your bank accounts
Signs of prosperity, not a sign of joy
I am within you and you look for me in others
In your parents eyes for their approval
In your friends for acceptance
In your siblings for some connection
In your partner for unconditional love
Signs of longing, not a sign of joy
I am within you and you look for me outside
In that promotion
In that vacation
In that paycheck
In that beer bar
In that birthday bash
In that phone screen for God's sake
You look for me even in your social media feeds
Signs that you truly wish to find me, but definitely not a sign of joy
You find the mansion, your ideal car, the million in the bank and yet you say 'there's something missing'
Double your income and triple your possessions and I'll still be waiting, deep inside you, just waiting to be found !
You receive the approval, get the acceptance, find the connection and love and yet you say 'they just don't get me'
You can fight with your parents, breakup with your partner, find new friends
I'll still be waiting, deep inside you, waiting to be salvaged !
You curate these so called ideal experiences - of vacations, birthdays, family get togethers, partying with friends; you'll control every aspect of life, your career, your family, your children and yet you say 'I'm happy but it could be better'
You can curate and control your life all along and I'll still be waiting, deep inside you, waiting to celebrate our connection.
You were just four, running around the playground
You'd just discovered the open air and sun
We had a lovely evening together
With peels of laughter emanating from deep within you
The kind that made me cry
Now I know why they refer to me as 'tears of joy'
I remember when we met on your tenth birthday
In the midst of your family and friends
While you were beaming with the wishes and gifts
I knew we were connected deep within
Remember the moment at the beach
You were soaked neck deep in the ocean
You closed your eyes to take it all in
Just a fleeting moment of our rendezvous
I ache for more of these within
I don't see you as often these days
I know you're trying to keep up with the race
Sometimes I wonder who fed you these beliefs that you're going to find me at the finish line
Slow down a moment and I'd probably join you at that pace
Little do you understand
That maslow's hierarchy is a MYTH
You don't have to climb up some ladder to find me
From the beginning of time, I've been here, deep within
Just close your eyes for a moment
You can find me in the deep breath you take
I'm here in the fragrances of nature
You can see me in the sun kissed trees
Just close your eyes another moment
Forget your screen, your job, your bank balance
Cause once you take that moment to find me
You'll even find joy in these
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